It’s much harder to analyze myself than I originally realized. The things that I’m currently experiencing seem to take precedence in how I view myself, and I don’t like the bias that has been created. Regardless, I’m going to try rambling once again to come up with an idea.
I love to think about things. I analyze situations relentlessly in hopes of making new discoveries and changing the way that I see this world. I am ambitious for the sake of setting goals and achieving them, but I don’t like being competitive. I don’t want to do better than others; I just want to accomplish my impossible goals. I have a bad habit of investing myself into a lot of things superficially. I am a dreamer. I imagine myself floating away on an umbrella every time it’s windy outside. Music is an escape for me. I am extraordinarily awkward about all romantic situations. I just avoid them entirely. I am excited to be married and wholeheartedly committed to another person. I can’t wait to let my husband lead me and I can’t wait to know one person that fully. Silly. I don’t know why that’s on my mind.
People fascinate me. I am enamored with the beauty of even pieces of trash. A cup on the side of the road has a very complex story. It was a seed, then a tree, then processed in a factory. It was built and inspected, shipped, and filled with a drink. It was purchased, used, and tossed heartlessly out a window. Now it will be picked up, thrown in a bag, and put somewhere to never be used again. Even that piece of trash has seen a big chunk of the world. Amazing.
I am torn between a desire to succeed and a desire to have nothing. Luckily, I also value the importance of balance. I’m at a stage of my life where I feel like I can pursue anything.
WOOHOO! Inspiration. That last statement mixed with my tendency to day-dream inspired my song. Next post will have it!